Macaroni! 

Woody!

Woody is sick. Woody is my dog and he's about 15 years old now. It's weird that I don't get to see him everyday because he lives at my parents house. The vet told my brother that something might be wrong with him. So my mom took him back to the vet to get tested. He has fluid on his lungs and an enlarged heart. So he's on two different medications for the rest of his life. As many of you might know, Woody is the cutest dog on the whole planet! He looks like a puppy even though he's a senior citizen. I don't know what I'm going to do when he's gone. I've been keeping my mind busy for two days trying not to think about it, but I can't anymore. Poor Woody! I have to go now . . .

French Toast!

Let's just say today the Gods were shining on me. I made French Toast for the boys, which some would describe as "The closest to heaven 6 slices of bread, three eggs, splenda, cinnamon, milk, and vanilla could ever be." Now I'm not saying that I'm a french toast enthusiast . . . I like it once in a while and please no soggy insides . . . but today it was just what we all needed.

Anways, just a quick shout out to Kevin! Hey Boy! Just let me know when you're coming and we'll hook up.

Hmmmm . . . what to blog about . . . House Guests! I have a house guest we'll call him Cranky N Themornin . . . wow I'm impressed! He's a very good house guest. We're pretty bad hosts so it's nice to have such an independent guest. All I have to do is water him and wait . . . oh just a minute here . . . that's my roll out garden! Mr. Themornin is a little more high maintenance than that.

The only trouble is that it seems whenever we have guests to stay at our house Darb (my sugardaddy . . . er. . . live-in boyfriend) and I just cannot act normally! We're arguing, picking fights, and driving eachother crazy! I don't know why, it's just our way. We're crazy . . . and yes crazy in love.

I think that just about wraps up this blog session. Leave a message after the beep . . .

Dave Chapelle's Block Party

So we went to see it last night! I know the two guys I went with did not enjoy it, so I will just give my opinion of it. I loved it! Seeing Dave bring all those people together for the greater good was just enough to give me fuzzies. The film for me held a huge feeling of community and fun. It just made me open my eyes to so many things, that I was hugely impressed! Anyways, on to a new topic.

Resumes, HUH! Good God! What is it good for? Absolutely Nuthin! Say it again . . . ok yes I re worked my resume out today, and let me say it's been a while since I took that thing out for a spin. I hate job searching! Let me rephrase this . . . I hate looking for a job that is parttime and has to work around my school schedule that is currently unknown to me and will be changing every 4 months. Also, I'm not really looking forward to going back to a job. I've grown quite comfortable with my focus on my schooling. But alas, all things must come to an end and so shall this. So if anyone knows of a great part time job, let me know!

Day Two!

So I woke up this morning energized! I'm going to search out something to do in this town! What do I like to do? I used to sing, dance, act, draw, my parents were Kinsmen and I used to have fun at their events. So I went online and started looking! It seems that there aren't that many opportunities for amateur singers/dancers/actors . . . I'd say my hopes were crushed but come on! I still had drawing and the Kinettes right? I don't want to join a drawing club! what was I thinking? Obviously, being out of school this long, my brain has officially fried! So . . . the kinettes . . . I would actually have to look up their phone number and talk to someone about joining! Don't they know I despise phone conversations, especially with people I don't know! Geez! And then once I got there it would be me alone in a room full of do gooder wives (no offence to the ladies) with no idea what I was doing there.

So, I've decided that today I will change my life forever. I'm going to go for a walk. Get out of the house and walk! Yes! Hopefully . . . I'll try my best but I really don't have anywhere to go. So that sucks. Anyways, we'll see how the day ends up!

Adios Amigos

New!

Hey all!

I'm bored . . . and worried! I'm going to try and devote this space to being pretty honest about myself. The one place in the world I can just say something and not feel bad about it. I'm currently experiencing the wild and wonderful College Teacher Strike of '06 and it's leaving me bored and empty. Sadly to say, this experience is only enhancing my already dismal life. Call it a deep rut, ennui, boredom, or a bad case of the Mondays, call it whatever you want but fuck (is swearing allowed on a blog? This is my first time) my life seems to be heading nowhere. It's funny because, at this point I have so much going for me externally. I'm doing well now that I'm back in school, I have a wonderful relationship, I have two of the greatest cats to ever walk the earth, a great apartment, and a small group of good friends. I know I sound like such a whiner, but do you ever feel like you've lost your gleam? Your new car smell is worn out and you realize that you're just some weird imposter that doesn't really fit into anything you thought you were. It's strange, I talked to some friends I used to have and all they could say was how much fun we used to be, and what a crazy, outgoing, nice person I was, and all I could think was how strange a concept that was. I don't do anything crazy now. I'm afraid of people, of talking to them or making new friends, like they will now that I'm a faker. I'm certainly not nice. I used to care but I find more and more I'm just a bit bitter and cynical. With what who knows?

As I go over this whole thing, I'm thinking what good is this blog, I can't possibly tell my friends to come here and read my whiny thoughts. But then again, they know what a blog is for and I think ranting and outpouring ones soul is a valid blogspretion. So I will put it up. I'll be brave. Now!